Redemption

So dark yet so cold, i am lost as i drift further down to darkest side in my life…

i am so lost,

so empty,

so confuse,

so lonely,

such a loser.

 

 

advice i heard enough, 

encouragement overflow,

example have been showed,

yet all seem nothing more to me.

 

as i tried to

redeem,

embrace,

forgive,

myself in stillness,

i stopped breathing as time ticking passed by.

 

 

I died,

lifted up,

carried off,

to somewhere i belong

 

 

I find joy,

peace and wholeness 

I-self find freedom,

i find redemption and forgiveness.

Alive and well in the place i belong.

By,

tim

 

 

well basically i also dunno why i wrote it up. I find funny of how i express myself. I know i sound too emotional, but the truth is I’m a EMO guys. I like having the feeling, yet i like to pretend macho. So what… i just a ordinary guys.

It is such a unique emotion god create for us to feel. Yet some people don’t know how to appreciate  or embrace it, and certain people take advantage of it.

Why wanna be macho when u can cry ?

why cry when u can look good ?

Why cry when people not going to pity u but for the sake to stop u crying ?

I always tell myself is alright to cry, and yes i cried for certain reason…

Because it can ease off the anger, tension, burden, the voice that buried inside us always have wanted to break free.

And yes of course, for the god touch in my life that are getting stronger indeed. 

 

There are once a the age of 18 going 19, i let go, i break down, i cried after such a long time, for a good reason. The tension, the burden the anger that unforgiveness between me and my parent which release tighten the bond between us. I too cried at huge camp for unexplainable GOD touch in my life.

 

Maybe crying is the only way we could even express unexplainable emotion beyond word or to redeem ourself for a redemption we seek.

 

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